Life is Swell

There's something that I would really like to do. But, I think that I have built up walls so high and even though I was one that built up these walls, there's no way that I can take them down. So, I'm in a bind. I want to do it so bad, but for some reason, my heart and my mind won't allow me to do it. It's like it permanently shut itself off to the thought of it long ago. And it's the strangest feeling when you realize that's what's happening.