Have you seen my love?

Amanda has me hooked on Matt Good. At the moment the only thing I ever listen to is Damien Rice and Matt Good. I can’t get enough. She’s recommended another band called “The Gossip” which I have yet to have a listen to as well as Mother Mother which I already love. She’s got some good taste so next time I can download music you can be assured that I will give it a go.

My back and legs have never been this sore in my life. Today got me good and I don’t know why. I didn’t do anything strenuous, I didn’t even have a housekeeping shift, I just can’t even muster up the strength to move, I’m that sore. Hannah asked me to show her wear on my back that was sore and I touched the top, middle, bottom and my shoulders. She thought I was exaggerating to which I assured her I wasn’t and I was in that much pain. She then offered me a massage. She’s the best. I didn’t even complain with the intention of her giving me a massage I really was just that sore. I was even doing some stretches behind the bar because it was bad enough that I didn’t even care what kind of comments I would receive. I also found a massive bruise on my ass from when I fell down the stairs. Hannah said she saw it in the pool today and it was only green so it was alright but then I pushed my bathing suit bottoms to the side and discovered it’s also purple/red, only green around the outside. At least it’s healing. I can’t imagine what it was like a couple of days ago when it was fresh. It’s probably a good thing that I didn’t look at it. Okay, I’m done complaining.

Life is alright, I’m getting on. My hair is growing fast and I have some pretty intense roots right now. I keep debating on picking up hair dye and then deciding it’s not worth it. I’m not too concerned with my appearance here so why waste the money. Today my boss said to me “wow, your eyes look really beautiful today, what did you do different?” Well I put makeup on and I actually spent time getting ready for work for one of the first times since I got here. At least it got noticed besides the drunk men at the bar.

I wish I had a more exciting update. Or something to blog about. I’m lacking inspiration at the moment. Normally I have something to talk about, something I am thinking about but for the last few weeks I feel like I’m just a straight line. Just going through the days, working, sleeping, eating. There’s not much else to do so it’s understandable but then when I say that I feel like I am making excuses for not really living. I don’t like feeling like this. I need a good conversation, I need someone to snap me back to my old self. Only everyone from home (the people that have superb conversational skills) I can’t connect with properly, because we hardly ever have internet. I talk to Dariane and that keeps me going, makes me happy, makes me smile. And Katie texts me at least every other day so that’s also good. The other day mom called and that was good but I want to sit down with someone and see them and talk to them. I want to ask questions and get more than a ya or a maybe. I want something to keep the conversation going. There’s nothing that gets me more than that. When you ask a question trying to start a conversation and you feel like you’re talking to a brick wall.

I think when I get home I want to take up playing piano again. Only we got rid of our piano I do believe. So maybe that one will have to wait. Dariane and I have been talking about our apartment just about every time we talk. Ideas we have and things we want to do. I can’t wait to move back to the city and have a place to call home again. It will have been a year since I have lived somewhere that’s my own and it will be amazing. You don’t realize how lucky you are to have a home until you don’t live anywhere for a long time. There’s a lot of stuff that I have in storage that I haven’t seen since April of last year and when we get to unpack it, I have a feeling it’ll be like Christmas all over again. I think we will probably live close to school but I’m not really sure. Dariane said it didn’t matter to her where we live so then I am thinking about how great it would be to be in Osborne again but I don’t know. You pay a ridiculous amount for what you get in some of those places and although I thought that I really like character buildings I’m not sure I do. Everything just gets wrecked and is old. Even though it’s got character, I do like things that aren’t broken. Steph and I had a nice place and I wouldn’t mind living there again. It’s on a good bus route and the apartment itself was really nice and you can definitely do a lot with it if you want to, which I think we do.

My birthday is coming up and this is the first year that I haven’t been excited for it. Even though I know there’s usually drama on my birthday and last year a whole lot of it thanks to a couple of my best friends. Thanks girls!! (Just kidding I don’t know what I would do without you!) This year it’s going to be weird here with none of the people I love most. I got Hannah so that’s good, I would be dreading it a lot more if she wasn’t here but normally it’s a day to get everyone together and just have a good time. This year it’ll be fun but it won’t be the same. Hannah and I are going to try and get a couple of days off to celebrate and recuperate but it won’t be the same. I’m throwing a large party when I get home. I miss the parties that Strath and I had. Even though it didn’t always go as planned (hospital visits and other drama) it was always pretty fun.

I should go have some tea and then start another shift. Katie asked me today if I was always working and I realized I pretty much always am working. I haven’t had a day off in a long time but it’s a bit different because we usually have the afternoon off. Although when we have the day time off it’s too hot to do anything but hang out in your room. We have a day off together on Wednesday and I think that we’re going to drive out to Port Samson and do some sight seeing. Might as well make the best of it while we are here.

Amanda has me hooked on Matt Good. At the moment the only thing I ever listen to is Damien Rice and Matt Good. I can’t get enough. She’s recommended another band called “The Gossip” which I have yet to have a listen to as well as Mother Mother which I already love. She’s got some good taste so next time I can download music you can be assured that I will give it a go.

My back and legs have never been this sore in my life. Today got me good and I don’t know why. I didn’t do anything strenuous, I didn’t even have a housekeeping shift, I just can’t even muster up the strength to move, I’m that sore. Hannah asked me to show her wear on my back that was sore and I touched the top, middle, bottom and my shoulders. She thought I was exaggerating to which I assured her I wasn’t and I was in that much pain. She then offered me a massage. She’s the best. I didn’t even complain with the intention of her giving me a massage I really was just that sore. I was even doing some stretches behind the bar because it was bad enough that I didn’t even care what kind of comments I would receive. I also found a massive bruise on my ass from when I fell down the stairs. Hannah said she saw it in the pool today and it was only green so it was alright but then I pushed my bathing suit bottoms to the side and discovered it’s also purple/red, only green around the outside. At least it’s healing. I can’t imagine what it was like a couple of days ago when it was fresh. It’s probably a good thing that I didn’t look at it. Okay, I’m done complaining.

Life is alright, I’m getting on. My hair is growing fast and I have some pretty intense roots right now. I keep debating on picking up hair dye and then deciding it’s not worth it. I’m not too concerned with my appearance here so why waste the money. Today my boss said to me “wow, your eyes look really beautiful today, what did you do different?” Well I put makeup on and I actually spent time getting ready for work for one of the first times since I got here. At least it got noticed besides the drunk men at the bar.

I wish I had a more exciting update. Or something to blog about. I’m lacking inspiration at the moment. Normally I have something to talk about, something I am thinking about but for the last few weeks I feel like I’m just a straight line. Just going through the days, working, sleeping, eating. There’s not much else to do so it’s understandable but then when I say that I feel like I am making excuses for not really living. I don’t like feeling like this. I need a good conversation, I need someone to snap me back to my old self. Only everyone from home (the people that have superb conversational skills) I can’t connect with properly, because we hardly ever have internet. I talk to Dariane and that keeps me going, makes me happy, makes me smile. And Katie texts me at least every other day so that’s also good. The other day mom called and that was good but I want to sit down with someone and see them and talk to them. I want to ask questions and get more than a ya or a maybe. I want something to keep the conversation going. There’s nothing that gets me more than that. When you ask a question trying to start a conversation and you feel like you’re talking to a brick wall.

I think when I get home I want to take up playing piano again. Only we got rid of our piano I do believe. So maybe that one will have to wait. Dariane and I have been talking about our apartment just about every time we talk. Ideas we have and things we want to do. I can’t wait to move back to the city and have a place to call home again. It will have been a year since I have lived somewhere that’s my own and it will be amazing. You don’t realize how lucky you are to have a home until you don’t live anywhere for a long time. There’s a lot of stuff that I have in storage that I haven’t seen since April of last year and when we get to unpack it, I have a feeling it’ll be like Christmas all over again. I think we will probably live close to school but I’m not really sure. Dariane said it didn’t matter to her where we live so then I am thinking about how great it would be to be in Osborne again but I don’t know. You pay a ridiculous amount for what you get in some of those places and although I thought that I really like character buildings I’m not sure I do. Everything just gets wrecked and is old. Even though it’s got character, I do like things that aren’t broken. Steph and I had a nice place and I wouldn’t mind living there again. It’s on a good bus route and the apartment itself was really nice and you can definitely do a lot with it if you want to, which I think we do.

My birthday is coming up and this is the first year that I haven’t been excited for it. Even though I know there’s usually drama on my birthday and last year a whole lot of it thanks to a couple of my best friends. Thanks girls!! (Just kidding I don’t know what I would do without you!) This year it’s going to be weird here with none of the people I love most. I got Hannah so that’s good, I would be dreading it a lot more if she wasn’t here but normally it’s a day to get everyone together and just have a good time. This year it’ll be fun but it won’t be the same. Hannah and I are going to try and get a couple of days off to celebrate and recuperate but it won’t be the same. I’m throwing a large party when I get home. I miss the parties that Strath and I had. Even though it didn’t always go as planned (hospital visits and other drama) it was always pretty fun.

I should go have some tea and then start another shift. Katie asked me today if I was always working and I realized I pretty much always am working. I haven’t had a day off in a long time but it’s a bit different because we usually have the afternoon off. Although when we have the day time off it’s too hot to do anything but hang out in your room. We have a day off together on Wednesday and I think that we’re going to drive out to Port Samson and do some sight seeing. Might as well make the best of it while we are here.