You know when you meet some people and they have this ability to make you think about what’s going on in your life, where you’re at, why you’re doing what you’re doing and so on. Well recently I have become friends with someone who is just like that. Someone who will probe me with these intense questions and really listen for an answer and can totally tell if I’m making up a bunch of bull shit.
I’m very comfortable admitting that I don’t have a lot of friends who I am extremely close to. There are a handful of people who I feel comfortable sharing everything with. People that I don’t feel like I have to edit or hold back anything that I am thinking. A small handful of people…a handful as if I was missing a couple of fingers. I have met some of these people recently, well within the last 6 months and they have opened my eyes to many things.
My life right now feels good. Sometimes, especially lately I have had some really difficult moments. But i feel good, and I’m trying to focus on the positive. I am surrounded by nothing but amazing people, people who are care about each other and people that I care about and they care about me. And I want to look at things positively. I know that I’m the kind of person who is easily brought down by things that they think about. I’m a lot better than I used to be, I used to watch something or listen to a song and start thinking about my life or about other things and then I would get into a funk for days and that’s not a good way to be. I want to be the kind of person with an optimistic outlook on things and not someone who can be brought down so easily. It takes work but I think that I can do it.
It’s sometimes shocking to think about how much people change as they grow up. The other day I was talking to Katie about scents and songs and how something can remind you so much of things from your childhood. Everytime I smell something that smells like blueberries, in particular I think about my friend Janelle and standing beside her in grade 5 or 6 assembly singing O’ Canada when she would use her blueberry lipsmackers. When you are reminded of things in your past and you start to think about different things that happened it’s amazing how you can see what formed you, why you have some of the attitudes that you do and why you think the way that you do. It’s just shocking when you take a second and really think about it.
I know this is random and not very well spoken but I’m not a good writer and anyone that knows me know my head is in a million different places at once all the time. Next time I’ll try and post something that’s a little more put together.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Ahh...sleep
This blog will be a bit of random everything because that’s kind of how I am feeling today but blogging because I made a promise to myself that I would, as well as Amanda because she promised that she would read if I blogged so I will let you all in on my random thoughts cause you know they are pretty exciting and it’s probably the best way to avoid studying which I desperately need to do.
So..I finally did it. I got my first tattoo. It took 3 hours and I absolutely love it, well as much as I have seen of it. It was covered last night and then finally got to take off the bandage today but haven’t had a chance to look at it yet. I know that I will love it. It was however, the most painful experience I have ever volunteered and paid for but that’s not to say much cause I have never paid to be in pain before. But it was bad, Katie came with me and got to watch the faces that I made. The tattoo is a tree on my back and I will put up a picture as soon as it’s nicer than now because it’s all oozy and gross.
I am sitting in the entrance to the library at the university because there is never anywhere to sit!!!! And watching people which I do so well and all the time because people really fascinate me. What fascinates me most for example, is that girls dress to the nines to come to class – fancy bar shirt, TONS of makeup, heels but they can’t walk in them!! I think it’s hilarious to watch people stumble around on their heels because I just don’t get why they bother to wear them if they can’t walk in them, isn’t the whole reason that they are wearing them in the first place is so they can be more “sexy”
Okay…i wrote that a day or two ago, now I shall add and just keep adding until it’s quality, or I could do several and then maybe you would actually want to read it daily cause I would be constantly updating. Hmm that’s maybe a good idea.
I’m going to do that…post more later :)
So..I finally did it. I got my first tattoo. It took 3 hours and I absolutely love it, well as much as I have seen of it. It was covered last night and then finally got to take off the bandage today but haven’t had a chance to look at it yet. I know that I will love it. It was however, the most painful experience I have ever volunteered and paid for but that’s not to say much cause I have never paid to be in pain before. But it was bad, Katie came with me and got to watch the faces that I made. The tattoo is a tree on my back and I will put up a picture as soon as it’s nicer than now because it’s all oozy and gross.
I am sitting in the entrance to the library at the university because there is never anywhere to sit!!!! And watching people which I do so well and all the time because people really fascinate me. What fascinates me most for example, is that girls dress to the nines to come to class – fancy bar shirt, TONS of makeup, heels but they can’t walk in them!! I think it’s hilarious to watch people stumble around on their heels because I just don’t get why they bother to wear them if they can’t walk in them, isn’t the whole reason that they are wearing them in the first place is so they can be more “sexy”
Okay…i wrote that a day or two ago, now I shall add and just keep adding until it’s quality, or I could do several and then maybe you would actually want to read it daily cause I would be constantly updating. Hmm that’s maybe a good idea.
I’m going to do that…post more later :)
I'm Really Trying
I’m trying, I promise that I am. Writing blogs is a lot harder than I could have imagined. Actually doing it, sitting down and writing one takes time and effort. Both of which I feel that I currently lack.
I feel like I am always working and I mean I am, between both jobs, school, and trying to keep my GPA up and also make it better it’s getting intense…and very very busy. The thought has crossed my mind to maybe quit one of the jobs but I don’t know, I want money…I think that I am way too motivated by money, but I want to travel, I want to explore, I want to get out of Winnipeg and out of Canada for a little while. I know full well that I want to live in Canada for the rest of my life, but I also know that I really need to see some of the world.
Today I was reading my friend Amanda’s blog who has done so much in her life. She’s gone to so many places - overseas and she’s also lived in Seattle for a few years. I would love to do this, I would love to go places to live somewhere else. Just to experience something different than what is here.
Life feels like it’s changed, like things have really really changed and I’m excited, I’m nervous, I feel ready but yet so intimated. Katie and I have plans to go to New Zealand or Ireland next fall and it’s extremely exciting. I can’t imagine what things will be like when we actually start finalizing the plans and figuring things out and actually getting ready to go. It’s crazy and it’s amazing and it will feel absolutely so right, i know that it will. But I also know that I will miss my friends, more than I can imagine.
The last little while, I feel like my relationships with my female friends has grown intensly. I have gone out with them a lot more and opened up to them more and depended on them more for support and every single one of them is amazing. I don’t and I never have had close female friends, really close female friends.
I feel like I am always working and I mean I am, between both jobs, school, and trying to keep my GPA up and also make it better it’s getting intense…and very very busy. The thought has crossed my mind to maybe quit one of the jobs but I don’t know, I want money…I think that I am way too motivated by money, but I want to travel, I want to explore, I want to get out of Winnipeg and out of Canada for a little while. I know full well that I want to live in Canada for the rest of my life, but I also know that I really need to see some of the world.
Today I was reading my friend Amanda’s blog who has done so much in her life. She’s gone to so many places - overseas and she’s also lived in Seattle for a few years. I would love to do this, I would love to go places to live somewhere else. Just to experience something different than what is here.
Life feels like it’s changed, like things have really really changed and I’m excited, I’m nervous, I feel ready but yet so intimated. Katie and I have plans to go to New Zealand or Ireland next fall and it’s extremely exciting. I can’t imagine what things will be like when we actually start finalizing the plans and figuring things out and actually getting ready to go. It’s crazy and it’s amazing and it will feel absolutely so right, i know that it will. But I also know that I will miss my friends, more than I can imagine.
The last little while, I feel like my relationships with my female friends has grown intensly. I have gone out with them a lot more and opened up to them more and depended on them more for support and every single one of them is amazing. I don’t and I never have had close female friends, really close female friends.
Third Times the Charm
This is my third attempt. My third attempt at starting a post for this blog, because i always seem to get sidetracked and find much more exciting (not really) things to do.
I want to add pictures, I want to add this really cute video that I took of my cat the other night but I have no idea how to do any of that....hmm maybe I will experiment and once again put it off. Okay I got it figured out, but due to our slow slow internet connection this is not going to work right now. I will get them up soon.
In the mean time, I will add things on the side, like things about me - favorite song right now...movie's and all that jazz.
I inspired someone to start a blog just by all my talk because I sure don't have a blog going on yet..until now I guess. I'm going to experiment and add things on the side. I promise soon I will post something of quality. You will just need to wait.
I want to add pictures, I want to add this really cute video that I took of my cat the other night but I have no idea how to do any of that....hmm maybe I will experiment and once again put it off. Okay I got it figured out, but due to our slow slow internet connection this is not going to work right now. I will get them up soon.
In the mean time, I will add things on the side, like things about me - favorite song right now...movie's and all that jazz.
I inspired someone to start a blog just by all my talk because I sure don't have a blog going on yet..until now I guess. I'm going to experiment and add things on the side. I promise soon I will post something of quality. You will just need to wait.
Monday, September 1, 2008
Next Chapter
So, I admit that I am terrible at keeping up to date with us, and I am not going to continue leaving you (no idea who reads this) empty promises on whether or not I am going to update once a week or a few times a week or whatever but rather I will continue to update it as I think of it.
On Thursday, I go back to school for my third year. Third year and well on my way to a psyc degree. It's pretty nerve racking. I am going to be taking some pretty hard classes this year with full intention of raising my grade to well above or close to an A or a B+ so I really need to be on the ball. Luckily I have a bunch of people who are taking the same anatomy class as I am and want to study together and someone who claims he is an expert and will help me out as much as I need him to.
We moved into a new place and Katie and I are sharing a room. It's pretty much the most adult room I have ever been in regardless of the fact that I am sharing it with someone.
This is sort of a photo of like half our bedroom, you can see our nice photo wall and not a whole lot more than that.
I'm going to get back to focusing on all the stuff that I need to get done before I go home. I will try to post soon, and maybe include some more photos, now that I got a new camera I can take plenty of them.
I will leave you two more of my most amazing kitty....one cuddling with Katie's puppy stuffed animal and the other lying proudly under the cuban flag.
On Thursday, I go back to school for my third year. Third year and well on my way to a psyc degree. It's pretty nerve racking. I am going to be taking some pretty hard classes this year with full intention of raising my grade to well above or close to an A or a B+ so I really need to be on the ball. Luckily I have a bunch of people who are taking the same anatomy class as I am and want to study together and someone who claims he is an expert and will help me out as much as I need him to.
We moved into a new place and Katie and I are sharing a room. It's pretty much the most adult room I have ever been in regardless of the fact that I am sharing it with someone.
This is sort of a photo of like half our bedroom, you can see our nice photo wall and not a whole lot more than that.
I'm going to get back to focusing on all the stuff that I need to get done before I go home. I will try to post soon, and maybe include some more photos, now that I got a new camera I can take plenty of them.
I will leave you two more of my most amazing kitty....one cuddling with Katie's puppy stuffed animal and the other lying proudly under the cuban flag.
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