So I had this whole long post written about being in bad moods and then I decided not to post it because really who wants to read about someone being in a bad mood.

Something happened last night and it was absolutely terrifying. I woke up at 4:30 in the morning to a blood curdling scream. I thought that this only happened in movies. It was a guy screaming which I also rarely hear. Anyways, after the screaming there was a lot of banging but not too much yelling or talking. I lay awake for a long time thinking about what might have happened and my mind went to some pretty scary places. It's amazing what one can think of when they're scared. This morning I woke up and didn't really remember/really hoped it was a dream and went out to the bathroom and there was police tape blocking off the elevators and the hall in front of the elevators which is right outside my room. I went to the bathroom, then came back and asked Hannah if she woke up last night and what she thought. Then we went out of the room to check out the situation and saw a paper in front of the elevators. When we read it, it said "victim stabbed here". The victim was stabbed right outside of our bedroom door. This is absolutely terrifying. I won't get into any more details than that because I don't know much more than that but we're safe...and that's the most important part. Although I must admit being in Perth is the first time I haven't felt totally safe and it's only because of that. Just yesterday walking around in the evening I didn't feel safe and I never worry that much about walking. Also that's a ridiculous sentence to read back to myself.





There's a few photos from yesterday the beach. The first one is a view from the restaurant where we had lunch, also when Dariane called me. It's hard to imagine it's snowing where she is and over 30 where we are.



That photo is just to show you how brutal my tan lines are...my stomach matches the sand. I should work on that.

Hello Timebomb.

My blog might be sparse for the next little while. I don’t know about how much we’ll have internet connection and when I do have a chance to update you can bet that I will. Writing is like therapy for me and not being able to write on here has got me pretty full of things to say.

Melbourne was good but I’m glad to be able to have a day to do nothing and relax on the train. Constantly being on the go wears me out and by the time we were walking to the train station this morning I felt exhausted. I guess waking up at 6 AM didn’t help either. Last night Hannah and I both had the most insane headaches and were pretty much in bed by 8pm. It wasn’t a good feeling at all. I woke up this morning feeling loads better and Hannah just needed a coffee to get rid of her headache. Bad news bears.

I find that time is flying by here. It doesn’t feel like it’s almost December and it certainly doesn’t feel at all like Christmas time. We were invited somewhere for a massive Italian feast on Christmas so we might take advantage of that seeing as it’s the closest we will get to a family type of celebration. It’s hard to believe that we have less than 5 months left here. I’m happy time is flying by because I miss everyone from home so much but I have a feeling that when it’s time to leave it will be with very mixed emotions. I’ll be excited to get home but also sad to leave. Hannah and I have been talking about the flight home already and we have managed to work ourselves up about it quite a lot.

I talked to a friend of mine on the phone the other day and her reaction when she figured out it was me was “wow it’s really you” It was one of the funniest things I’ve ever heard. It’s weird to hear someone’s voice after 2 months kind of…especially when you just spend 3 months living with them and talking to them every day. Even though I’ve been talking to people back home with email and whatever it’s nice to be able to hear their voices. I get to hear Mom and Dariane’s voice all the time…so that’s definitely very helpful. Dariane has a plan where she can call me and that’s been the best thing ever. I absolutely love being able to talk to her regularly and don’t know what I would do without that. It’s a huge help.

I am really hoping that we are able to find jobs in Perth within a week. If I don’t start working soon I’m going to have to come home quite soon and start paying off my debt. Hopefully though with working at a bar, in a small farming or mining town we will be able to make some money and some friends. Then we’ll be able to buy a vehicle and be on our way. I think Cam might join us on our road trip which would be awesome to have another person hanging out with us. Plus he might be able to set up a tent better than us…seeing as I call tent poles, rainbows.

We are doing 3 major cities in 24 hours right now and I think I might die by the end of it. We woke up at 6 AM to board a train to Sydney from Melbourne and tomorrow morning we will wake up at 3:00 to take a cab to the airport in Sydney where we will board a flight to Perth at 6AM. So really it’s more like 26 hours but it’s going to be a tad bit brutal…especially waking up at 3 in the morning. We thought about not even going to sleep but that doesn’t seem like the best idea, because then by the time we get to Perth we will be exhausted and we will have messed up our entire sleep schedule.

I’ll try and write more sometime soon…I know this post was kind of pointless but I’m pretty exhausted and just finished updating our travel blog so am kind of sick of typing.

I'll be back soon...

Be back soon.
Temporary blogging break due to being on the beach.

I'll miss you and when I come back I'm sure I will have plenty to say.

Q & A with M & M

1.What is your current obsession?
music...I think it's my life long obsession. Oh and gossip girl and the city and the hills. I think I watch the city so much I'm beginning to talk like Whitney.

2. What are you wearing today?
Currently black yoga pants and a blank tank top. We went for drinks earlier and I was wearing jeans and my black tank.

3. What’s for dinner?
We had some vegetarian tacos and red peppers.

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
I bought sun block today because we are on our way to the beach :) I haven't bought sun block in a long long time.

5. What are you listening to right now?
Gossip girl. My favorite.

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
Definitely just started reading her blog...so really I think nothing. She's pretty funny so far.

7. If you could have a house, totally paid for, fully furnished, anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
By the ocean. Close to my friends and family. Everyone move to the sea.

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
Sundresses and flip-flops...maybe a big floppy hat

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Brazil...although i can't' really complain about where I am now. It's pretty amazing here.

10. Which language do you want to learn?
Portuguese

11. What’s your favorite quote?
For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.
- Audrey Hepburn

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
whitney port. I want to talk fashion at the moment.

13. What is your favorite colour?
Deep purple...and teal. And black but that doesn't really count as a color. And I have a floral obsession right now. it's all the rage here.

14. What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own closet?
Hmm...all I can think of is the clothing that I have here with me...Probably this really cute little dress I bought..it shows my tattoo nicely.

15. What is your dream job?
Something where I can travel a lot. Because of my current obsession with the city I would go for something in fashion. Perhaps a buyer for a really great boutique. My dream job changes...all the time.

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
Any sort of celebrity gossip. I am addicted.

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
My flight to Perth.

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
People that wear fur...ugh and people that bare their midriff. gross

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
Most celebrities. Seriously, most aren't fashion-forward; they're just rich. If I had that kind of cash flow, I could dress like that, too.

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
I definitely love long hair. Really really long hair and I wish mine was longer. I will not cut it before I come home. I promise.

21. What are you going to do after this?
Go to sleep...I love sleep.

22. What are your favorite movies?
Ahh...this changes all the time. I just saw the new MJ movie and LOVED it. I love brokedown palace still, little miss sunshine is amazing, and that's all I have for the moment.

23. What are three cosmetic/makeup/perfume products that you can't live without?
Mascara, bronzer, and VS's heavenly body mist. I get compliments on it...all the time.

24. What inspires you ?
This is sappy but my sister. she inspires me every day of my life.

25. Give us three styling tips that always work for you?
After all my fashion talk I got nothing. If you don't feel like wearing any other makeup always use mascara and bronzer. It's fantastic.

26. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)?
Go with jeans and a black tshirt...it always works...and add a scarf.

27. Coffee or tea?
I miss the coffee from home soooooo much. But in the evenings I do enjoy a good cup of tea.

28. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
Talk to someone, work out, or blog. It all helps a lot. I usually do all three.

29. What is the meaning of your name?
Worthy of love

30. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
I read a lot of blogs...a lot. I'm not getting into them all. Almost all of them are linked on the side.

31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
Chocolate ice cream or berries and cream

32. Favorite Season?
Fall

33. If I come to your house now, what would you cook for me?
Sushi...if you didn't like sushi, something else you like. I imagine if I was home it would be the season when I start craving chilli. Mmmm...cold nights cozying up with a good book and a delicious bowl of chilli.

34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
If possible, ignore them. Try and do it in a classy way.

35. How do you calm yourself down when you are agitated or angry?
Exercise helps...alot. Talking to someone always helps as well. I have several people I go when I need to talk and they always calm me down.

36.Who is the modern ideal girl: The one who knows how to shop, dress and enjoy, or the one who is simple but manages the house, kids and herself well?
I like pieces of both...the first part about enjoying and the other one about being simple. I could care less about the managing everything well if it's from an outsider's point of view. I don't know if this makes sense. I find myself saying that a lot on my blog...strange.

happy birthday amanda

Dear Amanda,
I don't remember the day we met but I'm pretty sure that as soon as found out our names were the same we became pretty tight. You are one of the best listeners I know and an amazing friend. I know that we haven't been friends for that long but I feel like I have known you for a long long time. You have been there countless times for me and even though I am across the world right now, I know that I can still go to you when I have a dilemma and you've been there for me over and over again.



You are one of the funniest people I know. Everytime I am with you I know I can count on many many good laughs. We'll celebrate in style when I get home. Both of our birthdays.



i miss you.
Happy Birthday!!
Have the time of your life.

Around here, it's the hardest time of year

I had an entire post written on how I was lonely. It was long and I was rereading it and then I was sad. Then I smacked my head around a little bit and smartened up. I'm in Australia and I'm lonely. Granted yes, I do miss my friends and family more than I ever could imagine but I will get to see them again, and it's really not that far away anymore. Only 5 more months and I will get to give them all giant hugs again. This thought makes me so so happy. I am unbelievably lucky to have the friends and family that I do.

We're leaving Canberra...I want to be by the sea and the beach. As amazing as it is that Cam let us stay here for free and yes we really really enjoyed it we just need to get on. However when we leave it means that we won't have internet very often. At least not as often as now so be prepared for a lot less posts. Not that there is heaps now but I sure won't have as many as I normally do.

It's supposed to be 40 degrees in Sydney on Sunday...the day that we are supposed to be on the train. This really sucks...on this plus side we will be on the train to the beach. That's absolutely brilliant and I can't wait.

I've found a dress I think for Carly's wedding :) After my long long search I think I have narrowed it down. I am definitely going to need to get either a good corset or a strapless bra but it should be good! I'm still looking around and debating but I'm pretty sure I will go with this one. What do you think?? Only it will be in a dark brown color, not the blue color that the photo shows. Think I could pull it off?



Here's my most current favorite song. I hope you enjoy.

Goodbye Charlie

She was my buddy. I loved that cat so much and I'm really really going to miss her. She did some pretty silly things and I like to think that she was the way she was because of my skillful (or complete lack of skill) in training her.

I know that she's somewhere good so that makes me feel a bit better but I don't know. I hope she is ok.

Later Charlie (or chuck) I really loved you and you were an awesome first pet. I'm going to miss you.

It's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you

I've been doing some serious planning for when I get home. I'm in freaken australia and I'm planning for when I get back to Winnipeg. What is wrong with me? I have no no idea. I just have this sick mindset that I always have to be planning for the future. Why can't I just live in the moment?! It's so frustrating. That being said I don't think I am going to stop planning anytime soon. It's just something I do and even though my mind changes so often I enjoy doing it. And even though i am still in Australia, when I get back home I will have to continue on and get back to normal life. I think I want to do esthetics (sp?) when I get home or in a few years. This summer or next fall I am going to finish my psyc degree. I only have about 4 more classes I think and then I will find myself a good job and pay off some debt and then hopefully I will be able to go to esthetic school and maybe open my own business at some point. I think that it would be awesome to be able to work my own hours and not have to answer to anyone. Although I know that I would have tons to learn about running a business. I would have no idea where to start.

Dariane and I talked on the phone yesterday. I was so so excited to talk to her because I felt like it had been so long! She is getting this amazing leather jacket and I can't begin to explain how jealous I am. I don't know if I'd be so down with wearing leather but I'll definitely admire her jacket. I also know that I couldn't afford to buy a leather jacket not matter how bad I want to. Maybe I just use my excuse of not wearing leather to make myself feel better about not being able to afford it.

Last night we went and played trivia at the bar with Cam and Ivan. It was so much fun. We should start having trivia at home. It's awesome to just go and have a few drinks and play a game. Even if we knew like hardly any of the answers and did pretty poorly it was still really fun.

Also, how do I come all this way...I fly across the world to spend 7 months of my life only to find out that there is someone that I definitely like at home. Ugh, this is ridiculous and I can't even tell them because that would be stupid on my part. To be like oh, I like you but I'm gone for the next 7 months. Well I guess it's only 6 months now, it's starting to fly by. I can't believe that it's almost half way through november already.

I have recently discovered a serious pet peeve of mine. People who give me one word answers. Especially to my ridiculous questions because generally I ask them because I want to start a conversation. When you give me a one word answers I have about nothing to work with.

I know this is rambly and probably doesn't make a lot of sense but that's just how it's going to be. I love you all and can't wait to be home.

You can sit on chimneys...

Currently I am all thing Damien Rice and I have been this way for awhile now. He is pretty amazing. I've shared with you videos but really I have no idea which ones so I apologize if this is a repeat.



It's amazing how fast November is going. I feel like this trip is going to be over before I know it. Which I mean it probably will be. Once we leave Canberra I will hardly be on the internet. It'll be weird to get used to..but perhaps good. I'll miss talking with people. It's weird that the other day when I was freaking out about something I just called up Amanda via skype and she calmed me right down. It was nice that even though I am across the world I know I can always talk to someone from home.

Today I have a skype date with Dariane!! I haven't talked to her in a long time, and I am really excited. So excited that we are going to have a nothing day so that I can skype. Although we are going to go to the mall and do some shopping for Hannah...we have to find her some nice clothes or something. She claims to be a bad shopper. I don't understand. Although maybe that's because I am a pretty stellar shopper...and I love to do it.

Also I hate that I am cursed with this stupid must wake up early all the time. Hannah sleeps forever and I spend every morning bored out of my mind waiting for her to wake up. Sometimes I write blogs...like today. Sometimes I work on videos I am making. Sometimes I suntan or read.

Okay I'm extremely sidetracked with something and not working on this so I'll write more later perhaps.

Smooth Criminal.

i always...
... wake up too early, every day, like 6:30 am.
... laugh, but not quite as much as my mom. She laughs ALL THE TIME.
... want ice cream, especially chocolate chip cookie dough.
... feel loved.



i sometimes...
... randomly burst into song. also randomly break out into a stellar dance.
... miss the snow. Although this is happening more and more frequently.
... pretend like I am at home and desperately need fall sweaters and scarves.
... forget that I am in Australia. Then I hear someone speak.



i never...
... drink beer. Sometimes I try but it's always a huge fail.
... take time to think before I speak. Sometimes this is not a good thing.
... eat vegemite. I have tried and hate it and won't try to acquire a taste for it.
... thought that I would be as bummed out as I am about the broken treadmill.

Let it bend before it breaks...

The other day a dear friend pointed out something to me. We were talking about friends that become people who you see various places but don't acknowledge anymore because the friendship has just sort of faded. She called them "familiar strangers". When we started talking about this I told her that often when someone becomes a familiar stranger to me I generally just try and pretend like they were never friends with me. I will stop talking to them and if I have them on facebook delete them. She said that often she will do the same. She then went on to point out to me that this is a way to prevent yourself from getting hurt. If you take yourself out of the game then you can't lose kind of thing. I think in my life that I am often the type of person that takes myself out of the game. I have a huge fear of being hurt and I very rarely will allow myself to get too close to people. This is sort of contradictory because I am like an open book and I definitely wear my heart on my sleeve but I think that even though I do this I do have sort of a mental block where if I feel like something is going to go wrong I'll just stop. I don't know if any of this makes sense at all...it does in my mind but that's sometimes a bit loopy I know.

This all being said...I know I have only been gone a month and that's not very long but there are a couple people that I haven't spoken to at all since I have been away and I am taking myself out of it, and I wish that I didn't do this and I don't understand why I do but I do, and as much as I try not too it's easier to just let them go. For the first 3 weeks I was away I tried...I sent them messages to no reply several times. I get more messages from someone that when I left I told him I would never see him again. It's just backwards. And I don't get it and it makes me sad, but I honestly have no idea what else to do.

You know how they say absence makes the heart grow fonder? I don't particularly agree with this statement. I also don't completely disagree. However I have found that absence has made me realize who is really near and dear to me. Who I can't possibly go without. The people that are pretty damn amazing. It made me realize how much I value my family. Now before I dig this grave any deeper I will end this.
It's just some thought I have recently had. Tomorrow we will be going rapelling so I'll have some good photos and stories hopefully.