My Whole Heart

You know when you need a good cry? Like a really good one...like you just think that it's impossible to feel better again until you let it all out. That's the way I feel at this moment. I try and peg my emotions on the fact that it's nearing the lovely time of the month and that might be but this feels just so real. And I hate it. It's so overwhelming and so exhausting...and I don't want to feel like this I just don't know how to shake it. And I know that in a couple days or even possibly by tomorrow everything will be fine again it's just that right now it's dragging me down. I texted a friend of mine today and said "I know that I'm in Australia and that everything is supposed to be awesome and all but this sucks at the moment and I need someone to be able to talk to." And man do I ever feel like that. I'm on a freaken amazing trip right now and I hate it. I want to be home around people that I love. I know as soon as we are travelling again it'll be fine and I'll be happy to be here again but right now I feel like I'd rather be in Canada in the minus whatever degrees than be here.

Okay I'm done throwing myself a pity party. I just needed to get that off my chest because it's just how it goes at the moment. I think that, well at the moment I am getting a signal from my room because we have changed rooms. So as long as I keep on getting this signal you can count on many more blog posts. Which is awesome because this is like the best therapy I could get. Even after writing all that down, even though it's depressing, I feel a lot better. Well I still feel like having a cry but not quite as bad.

Please go to youtube (if it wasn't blocked I would totally have put it on here) and listen to this song. It's called White Blank Page by Mumford and Sons and I'm in love. Really with anything and everything by this band. They continue to blow my mind.

Can you lie next to her and give her your heart, your heart?
As well as your body, and can you lie next to her and confess your love, your love?
As well as your folly and can you kneel before the king and say ‘I’m clean’, ‘I’m Clean’?
But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?
But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?
Her white blank page & a swelling rage, rage
You did not think when you sent me to the brink, the brink
You desired my attention but denied my affections, affections
But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart.
But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart
Lead my to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
Lead my to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life